follow up

so it's wednesday night. we broke up on sunday. I know we've gone longer than this without talking when we were still together, but it is so weird to not hear from him.

I knew this definitely wasn't going to be easy, but I didn't think I'd cave so quickly. it's not just getting used to not having a boyfriend anymore, I'm finding it really hard to think of him as just a friend now. I still want to call him before I go to bed to say goodnight. when I'm making plans I wonder if he wants to come too. I can't get out of this mindset and it's aggravating to say the least.

we were so good on sunday. we were in such a good, understanding place. but each time I answer someone and say "yea, I'm doing fine. we're both ok" it feels more and more like a lie.

I'm already starting to wonder if I/we made a mistake. well, actually I've been wondering that since sunday. but I'm probably just not giving it enough time. 3 days is too soon to tell and I'm just hitting my first rough patch. we'll see how things go.